Queer Tharunka

I don't know what to say today. Seriously confused! When I came here, it was strange. The way people were all so normal about the gay/lesbian thing. Definitely was something strange and different. It was something "Queer". Sometime back, when I started writing this blog, I wanted to get published in university magazine or something like it. Didn't know what to do, whom to approach. so one day, while going through my university's website I ran into this advertisement asking for articles to be published. I was happy and forwarded two of my posts from this blog. A few days later I received a response. They didn't think my articles were in line with the magazine. I was confused as to what they meant. However, a few days later I received an email from the female editor of the magazine telling me how she loved reading my article and that she wants to publish it. I was delighted ofcos. My posts titled "It rained" was going to be published in the annual edition. Then I received an email asking me if I was okay with the article being published under my real name. Hell yes. Why not? Ofcos I wanted it to be published under my real name.

Lesbians are cute. Oh yes. Always excited me. But gay? Oh no. I just can't imagine myself on top of another man. Eeeew! I guess you have to be a man to understand how disgusting the whole concept is. Few days back I was watching this series called "Six feet under". Apart from the other things in the series, one of the characters was gay. Oh I felt so sympathetic. The way society treated him, how hard he found it to adjust and to conceal. The way his family reacted when they found out. Etc etc. In the end, the way I saw things and the way I reacted had changed. It was no more alright to make fun of gay men. I stopped cracking gay jokes. I learned to respect the freedom of choice, the choice to be different.

So why all this? Today the magazine got published. I was happy to see my article featured in it. Very happy, though for a short while! What is Queer? To me it meant being strange or out of ordinary. The dictionary defines it as "strange or odd from a conventional viewpoint; unusually different; singular: a queer notion of justice". I was oblivious to the fact that gay men are often referred to as queer. The magazine is called "Queer Tharunka". It is full of articles relating to homosexuality. Hey, I'm no homosexual. Now I understand as to why they asked me if it was ok to publish it under my real name. Oh no, all the people that must be reading my article now. Gosh. The post gets a whole new meaning. They probably think that Jiwateshwar Singh is a lesbian or probably a trans-sexual. Don't want to hurt anyone's sentiments here but hey, I have officially been labeled as the latest homosexual on the block. Damn! Why do such things always happen to me? Bloody hell! Life just ain't fair is it?