Hypocrite me

Shakespeare once said something about life being a stage and all of us being actors, each actor playing their role and carrying on. Not a definition I like but can't disagree with. It does sort of feel right, just another way of looking at things. A lot happens in one's lifetime, we meet new people through out. Constantly developing new relations, trying to read people, living up to expectations, and the constant effort we put into stabilizing any relationship. No relationship is stable, as a mater of fact even Earth ain't stable. Every relationship has it's ups and downs. Each and every move you make in a relationship can strengthen it or cause damage beyond repair. So what truly defines a successful relationship? and, can a relationship be strengthened enough to be immune to any sort of damage?

Oh! I'm not going to be able to answer those questions and if you are reading further in a hope to find some answer ... bye bye. Lolz. Back in my days at Delhi, I enjoyed huge networks. Probably everyone on campus fell into my network someway or the other. I knew more people than I could probably remember names of. So every other day, I was building a new relationship, friendly or hostile. Every time a relationship came into existence, new expectations were placed on me. At times, I imposed expectations of my own on them. Expectations are an important part of any relationship. Without expectations there can be no relationship. Such relationship can only exist under ideal conditions. But then would such a expectation-less relationship be strong enough to last long?

Each relationship built, required a new role to be full filed by me. I think that is what happens to everyone. The role of a considerate friend, obedient student, honest employee, compassionate lover, a godfather and what not. Some roles were easy to play, and yet there were those that I wasn't ready for. I had no clue about them and wondered as to how I fit in. And still I choose to play them, making the other person more so dependent on myself. Things I didn't associate myself with and still trying my level best to be, just because they needed it. It wasn't me, it was what they sought of me. I tried and tried not to let them down, until I could do it no more. How much of a hypocrite does that make me?