Its Just Something Lost!

why do i think she loves me
why do i wake up to her on my mind
why do the tinkiling bells on my bed remind me of her when i sleep
can i get over it
did those 3 years mean nothing
those fun times
hangin out together
the first time i touched her
the first time she touched me
the things i did
the things she never did
trying to quit drinking
giving up on friends
stuck to gtalk on nites cud av spent with pals drinking
crossing each other during after dinner strolls pretending not to be looking at each other
well atleast i pretended not to look
moments that expressed the obvious and yet bringing about silence
become someone u were not, try to change for her sake
love mocking the purity of morning dew
very thought of her making lips spread into smile
still wonder if u love her
trying to live with the hope she loves you
trying again to move on in life
got drunk and caught by her
trying to study
wait for the next semester
find excuses to stay together
fighting over bus tickets
looking back now
was it just me in there? i thot it was more than me all the time